life has taught me that its unfair, probably in the worst way possible. my dad tried to kill me when i was 3, my brother raped me when i was 13, my mom and my sister have been constantly harrassing me bc of this ever since i told them, they make jokes abt my depression and my suicidal thoughts. they even said to me to cut myself in front of them to prove im actually depressed. all my family has betrayed me and i have no one. i started to lose contact with my friends. i dont talk to anyone now except for my girlfriend, but even so i dont want to depend on her all the time. i just got out of a fight with her and i felt like my intrusive thoughts came back but i dont want to cause her any more trouble so im writting everything here. please, if you read this, please tell me everythings gonna be ok. i dont want to feel hopeless anymore. i dont want to commit another attempt against my life anymore. im tired.