Idk if someone will read this or not, so please excuse me if I sound too whiny. These days I feel so lonely and so out of place whenever I hear and see about my friend's life. I feel so useless, I use my health problem to run away from job hunting because I'm scared to become a full-fledged adult. It scared me if after I got my diploma I wont be able to act like a children anynore. My friends either got a job or married, or spend their days travelling or playing with their friends or loved ones. Me? I have neither. Well, I have my freelance work, but even I know that I'm not great at it and I cant depend my whole life on it only. I guess I feel so lonely that I start thinking crazy things. I didnt talk to my so-called friends unless it's about school, and we just graduate from it. And I feel disgusted that people always told me to depend on them or they're here for me when in fact, I'm just their acquiatance at most.Huh. I feel that talking more than this will reveal my ugliest side. I hope this wont bother anyone.