Most of the time I’ll be in a room full of people and I’ll feel the most lonely I’ve ever felt. With this pandemic it’s made this feeling so much worse because it’s pointed out how alone I actually am. I don’t have a lot of friends and it’s too late to change that but the one friend I do have has just starting ignoring me. She speaks to her boyfriend all the time and has no time for me anymore. And whenever I try to talk to my boyfriend about it he tells me to make new friends. Something that sounds so easy but it isn’t for me. I go to university in a few months so it feels pointless trying to start again with not long left. I just want someone to talk to about my thoughts and feelings. I want someone to message me first or to talk about the most random things ever. I don’t think I’ve ever had a pure , healthy and reliable friendship before which just makes me feel even more lonely.