I don't usually talk about how I feel towards people like when they say something that hurt me, I don't tell them. It's like I dont want them to feel sorry , or I don't want them to think that they hurt me and I'm expecting for them to apologize or change their ways. I don't tell my family anything about how I feel, I used to make jokes about suicides and my family aren't noticing that it's a cry for help. I did suicide attempts and nobody knows. I don't tell my problems to anyone including my closest friends . I had this feeling that no one will get me. No one will be able to understand what I'm going through. I'm just tired. I feel like I'm all alone now. I have a girlfriend and I'm just showing her the energy I usually have when I'm around her. I don't want her to feel unloved or me being inconsistent to her. I kept on pretending that I'm okay just for her to feel that I'm not going to change my love for her. I don't want to tell her because I might become her burden.