I feel torn apart between my family and beliefs. I feel like I can't say anything anymore. My mother is childish, my grandmother is not the best role-model and my grandfather is the only one I get along with fine simply because we don't have any heart to heart conversations. I have to bottle up feelings and thoughts just because they are not accepted where I am from. I am waiting to move out just so that I can have more self-expression. I love them but I can't possibly live like this all my life. I wish I could blame all these thoughts on moody teenager thoughts. But, I've talked with enough people to find out that, unfortunately they aren't, and that my mother, does have a toxic behaviour.