Never said this before, barely remember part of it.The summer after I graduated high school I shipped off to join the Marine Corps to Parris Island for boot camp. The night before I couldn't sleep due to all the anticipation. When we arrived on base we were running in circles like chickens with our heads cut off. The first night we weren't allowed to sleep, I ended up being awake for nearly 40 hrs by the time they let us sleep for the first time. The next day our receiving DI's woke us up around 0600 I'd assume. A few hrs into the day I couldn't eat at mid-day chow which caused me to nearly pass out while they were doing the blood draw for testing (normal receiving shit). After that they took me in a wheelchair to a different area and said I'd be on sick call for the rest of the day. Sitting there I kept wondering what my platoon was doing and couldn't figure it out. That night before lights out I got prescriptions to help me get over whatever bug I had and the FRSP DI came and got me and took me to FRSP for the night since I was going to have to pick up with the next platoon. On a few drugs the next day a few of the FRSP recruits who knew the Depot took me back to sick call and a dr called me in his office, being sick and in pain I fell asleep. I didn't wake up till he came back in the room about 20 min later, (now this part I very vaguely remember but it took yrs for me to remember even this much from this point) he asked me what was going on, I told him straight up I was sick and was on a few prescriptions and he asked me if I wanted to stay or leave. Not knowing the repercussions I said leave. So they flew me back home 2 weeks later. To this day I have tried to reenlist in every branch except the Marine Corps, I have provided everything saying I am fit for duty from dr's. 4 months after I had gotten back I decided it was time for me to start transitioning so I did and have been for 4 years. I waited about 3 yrs from the last time I tried re-enlisting and tried again in 2020 and they came back and said because there wasn't enough research done on trans people to know how the hormones would affect because a person cannot be reliant on anything. Now that the transgenders in the military ban is reversed again they will still say the same thing I think but I am also planning to apply law enforcement once I can use my hand again from my recent injury. I fucked my military career that I worked my ass off for and they wouldn't even take into consideration the fact that I was not in the right mind to make that big of a decision.