I got an abortion in secret, months after I graduated high school.
I was 17 at the time, and it was our anniversary. Things lead to one another, and I asked him if he had a condom. He told me no but that it was okay and that he will pull out.
A week later I found out that I was pregnant.
While all this was happening, I learned that he was seeing his ex-girlfriend behind my back but I never called him out on it. I was too stressed to even bring it up because I had to focus on how much it would cost to even get one. The grand total came up to around $800, and none of us had a job. I had to ask my friends if they can pitch in, and I even had to lie to my parents to have money to "go out". I gathered about $200. On his end, he managed to gather hundreds and hundreds of dollars from his friends and also from selling his video games.
I learned that the clinic can help me out because I wasn't 18 yet if I can talk to a case manager. Thankfully they accepted my case, but I was left with all of this money. I told him that it was going to be $0 and his expression on his face turned pale.
A week later after my abortion, he stopped talking to me... and then he broke up with me at the same spot he asked me out. It made me realized he was waiting for me to get the abortion so that he can get back with his ex who even had a boyfriend at the time. I then learned that he moved out of state by buying a plane ticket by using the same money.
I got depressed and had suicidal thoughts ever since, and even hearing the word 'abortion' gave me PTSD. It's been almost 4 years and I can still remember ever second of the operation. I can now tolerate hearing the word abortion and discussing about it. I hate that I had to go through it in secret, and no one in my family still knows about it. I don't think I can ever tell them either.