What’s wrong with me. I never hug my friends, family anyone. The thought of it freaks me out. Cuddling? Nope. Snuggle? Nope. Holding hands or showing any type of affection/love to anyone? Nope. I’m 17 and I haven’t even had my first kiss yet. I don’t want anyone to touch me nor do I want to touch anyone. I hate it. But I long for it so bad. I want someone to just grab me and hold me and tell me everything is going to be okay and just to keep a hold of me when I try to pull away. I feel like I’ve put up such thick walls around me and I’ve gotten so comfortable in them I just need someone to get them down. I need someone to show me what it’s like to be loved and what’s it’s like to want to be loved. To show me physical affection can be good and teach me how to love even thought I despise it.is that weird? Is there anyone else like this?