Alright so I’m just venting here so you can ignore this if u want.I literally should’ve just stayed at my grandmas house with my dad instead of coming back to this hell hole. I mean it’s not that bad. I’m just a little emotional right now but yeah. Everytime I come home, i end up in a fight with my mom and she gets all mad at me. She’s so sensitive istg and at this point idek why she had kids anyway. Her feelings get hurt so easily. Like istg one time, I was sleeping in the front seat cuz it was like 7:30 and I was tired as heck so I put my blanket over my head to sleep and I guess that offended her. She started rolling her eyes and making all these sarcastic comments. Like why tf do you care so much? Why does it bother you? These comments literally hurt my feelings sometimes like sometimes I will be sitting there literally holding back tears. She’s so mean for no reason and I don’t understand. Then she wonders why I have low self esteem. Like why do you think?and today she was like grabbing my arms and stuff and I tried to move away from her and ask her to stop. Like, she knows that I was sexually abused by my cousin and that I don’t like being touched or grabbed but she doesn’t respect my personal boundaries. I’ll give her hugs and stuff but I don’t want her grabbing me. It gives me ptsd. I’ve tried telling her this but she just tells me that somethings wrong with me. Then call a councilor or sum instead of making fun of me!then she had like a mini temper tantrum about it and was saying how I’m so mean and obnoxious.and after I walked upstairs my sisters said she was rolling her eyes and pushing stuff. Then she sarcastically said that she loves me and told me goodnight. Like, I was about to go downstairs and give her a hug but then she rolls her eyes and breathes all heavy.and in the car, when she gets mad at me she starts driving over the speed limit and slamming her foot on the break petal. Like sometimes I literally thought we were gonna get in a car crash.but then she acts like nothing happened and expects me to be all happy.I don’t understand. I don’t wanna live here but I feel bad about leaving her. Also, she’s my mom I can’t just move out and leave. It’s not that simple.