I'm so dumb, so fucking dumb to think that he would ever like me. All he does is manipulate people, all he ever does is befriend with them and betray them. I have no proof he's manipulating me this time, but he's done it before. He's told me how he will befriend someone for months, gain there trust, just to betray them and ruin there lives, I don't know if he's doing that to me, but if he is it wouldn't be surprising.I love him, I don't know why because I also hate him, I wanna hurt him so bad but I want to keep him safe, and hurt anyone who hurts him. At the beginning of our friendship he was fun, he gave me nicknames and we would tease each other, that's when I fell for him like an idiot.He made me become his friend, then after a few months he'd betray me and be rude, and I'd cry for hours over him, and like an idiot I begged for forgiveness, he would usually accept my apology after a while, but like before he did this again 3 more times, betray me, tell me how special I am to him, then call me rude names, cut me where it hurt most. We've been friends for almost 5 months now, he hasn't betrayed me yet. Usually he does it after a month or two, so I trust him. And I love him, I love him like the pathetic person that I am. It's unhealthy, I know. He doesn't treat me the same as when I first met him, if he loves you, he makes it known. I can tell he doesn't. Before when I'd come online he would spam my name in the chat, act like he was excited to see me. He would call me cute, flirt with me, I never felt so loved before. Now he never even talks to me, he only talks if I write first, now I see him calling other girls "cutie", I think I bore him.But for some reason I keep having hope that maybe he'll love me, maybe he will like me. He's the only reason I come online anymore, just to talk to him, he has bipolar disorder, so he's very depressed, so I'm always talking to him, making sure that he is okay. I shower him in complements, making sure he felt special, but he never ever even complements me back, I just want to have him like how I did at the beginning, where he would treat me like he loved me, where he would always care for me and I did for him.Now it's just one sided. I know he trusts me, I was the first person he came out as bi to, at least I think so, he could just be saying that to manipulate me. To make me think he trusts me. I don't know.I always pretend it doesn't hurt, but it hurts so much, because I know he doesn't love me, but I still have hope that he does. So idiotic.Someone once told me this quote "Sometimes we fall in love with the right people at the wrong time"I'm still hoping that its true.