i hate how out of hand my friend gets sometimes. they told to kms (jokingly i think) but had no indication they were joking. at all. they also said some kind of insult to me today and said "wait omg sorry was that fatshaming" and i just. i never knew i was percieved as fat. i hate it. i knew i wasn't skinny, and wasn't percieved as such but i just. i hate it so much. so fmuch. i wish they learnt to shut the fuck up sometimes and to think before they speak. i don't care if they don't mean it or "it was just a joke ahahha". i want to fucking punt them. so badly.