my sister mom and dad all keep calling me fat but i’ve been diagnosed with pcos and i need help to lose weight it’s not easy i’m depressed and anxious and they only make it worse i’ve been unable to control my weight for three years now only to be diagnosed this week... but my mom keep calling me fat and lazy and says that i don’t have it in me to loose weight and that medicine won’t help “everyone has cysts” all the while my sister and dad call me fat and obesei hate them :(i want to die it sucks...but again i wouldn’t do something like tht because for some reason i want to believe there’s hope and a future where things will be different.i don’t feel loved. and it sucks...well anyways my tablets were on the floor probably because one of my other little siblings dropped it but my mom shouted at me and insinuated that i had them on the floor like wtf i’m literally 18! am i stupid to have the fucking medicine on the floor for no reason so i refused and said it’s probably one of y’all and never once did i say i won’t pick it up but she was all like no way u did it for sure like wtf y’all for sure didn’t do it but i definitely did FUCK HER! whatever i pick it up... later my sis pulls some earring and throws it on the floor and i say no mom threw it cause it’s hers. *i meant to say it to prove to her that if she can say i threw some thing of mine even doe i didn’t then it’s fair for me to say she threw something of hers just because it’s hers as if no one else can touch n throw someone else’s things smh* but she got mad and started screaming that “YOU ARE SHIT” “SHIT YOU ARE” “BLOODY YOU CAN NEVER BE ON MY LEVEL” and i went *scoff* and she scoffed too then continued to insult and abuse me a lil more like fucking fat donkey you always on the bed and u know the usual. fucking hell she doesn’t even say anything when my sis abuses me and calls me fat it fucking hurtssssssss ughhhhhh mom sorry y’all have to read this it might sound dumb to y’all but it’s something that’s literally changed me so much i no longer want to talk to people i hate myself so much and even my life i just wish i wasn’t alive i really just pray that i never wake up tomorrow :) anyways yes thts all for now.