I want to hide inside of a cardboard box for the rest of my life. My body and face is hideous I cant stand looking in the mirror, a reflection, or having my photo taken. Theres nothing good about me. Not a single thing. I have a rude shit personality, my hair is short and choppy, my eyes are so small, my nose is wider than my mouth and has a huge bump, i have chubby cheeks, I have a flat ass and a cups, my stomach is bigger than my thighs, i just hate everything. I even hold a grudge against my parents for making me look like this. I cant help it. Everyone makes fun of me and calls me orge, people ask me out as a joke, i throw up due to anxiety before picture day and ripped the photo in tears afterwards. I just cant do this anymore. No one has ever called me beautiful other than to comfort me. No one will ever have their eyes glued to me in awe. Ive tried to work on myself but im just so numb and have no money for makeup or to fix my teeth or buy better clothes. I don't want to die but i don't want to look like this. I wanna be pleasing to look at. I want to feel human for once.
Re: I Hate Myself.
I can totally relate with what you are going through right now and I know how tough it is to grow up in an environment where people try to define 'beauty'. I also hated the way I looked ,I hated my personality, I hated that my friends dated guys and I couldn't even make a person like me ,I hated myself so much that I couldn't even look at myself in the mirror. Every single day was like I was having a tug of war in my own head. But now if you ask me , yes I love myself and I accept myself , each and Every thing about me is perfect. The thing is we get so caught up in the judgements thrown at us by the society that we actually forget our true self, our beautiful self. The best way to cope with these unemployed losers is to show them your middle finder. Lol haha or you could just show how strong and confident you are in your own skin and you don't give a shit about what they think of you.
And always remember that you'll always be beautiful for someone. For me you are and I know for sure there are many others.
Re: I Hate Myself.
Don't say those things about yourself again :( your beautiful just the way you are and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. People are always going to have something to say and that's why you need to have confidence in yourself. You have to tell yourself that your beautiful and that your enough or else you'll be stuck in the same spot forever. You need a change of mindset asap!! Trust me babe, confidence is the first step towards beauty. Start calling yourself beautiful and GORGEOUS and good thing will come your way :)