all i ask is for my parents to spend time with me. even if it's just watching a movie at night before we go to bed, only the three of us. after my little brother was born my parents have had no time to spend with me, their oldest child. i feel like maybe they don't want to spend time with me because of my appearance or personality sometimes; i'm severely overweight, my interests are boring, and i have a lot of social anxiety. i just wish my mother would stop putting me down and my father would listen to me. it's like i don't even have a relationship with them anymore. my mother hates me. my father is trying his best but my mother puts him down too. all they do is swoon over my little brother all the time and i'm just left in the shadows. i have nobody to talk to. the worst part is that i'm homosexual. if i come out to them i feel as though they'd push me away even further. i hate myself because my parents hate me.