i can tell how much i hurt you now, im so sorry logan- you mean the world to me. if you ever happen to see this although i highly doubt you will. i fucking love you- nothing compares to this emotion i feel toward you, if you ever did like me i know that those feelings are now gone because of how i pushed you away due to my own insecurities. I'm so sorry for only now realising my feelings- i know i'll never get the guts to tell you this so i will just watch from the side as your girl makes you happy. because thats all i want for you bby, you'll never know how much you mean to me and no one will and can compare. it causes me so much pain to see you do the things you did with me with another girl, a girl thats prettier and shows you the love i cant. im so so sorry bby that i couldnt be enough for you- just know i'll drop it all for you, always. You'll always be my first love bubs- thank you for showing me how much i deserve and how i need to grow up and face feelings because this is mental torture seeing you in love with someone else. I love you so fucking much and i know you'll never know and that hurts like fuck because i just want to hold you and love you and be the one you need- its even harder having to act happy for you. it hurts me endlessly, but my love for you prevails and all i wish is for you to be happy, so i hope the 25th goes the way you want it to and again, im sorry for not being enough bby. i love you loggy, my whole heart, athena.