as i grow relationships with my parents become more and more toxic time to time
i have a little belly and i swear to god they remind me about that minimum 3 times a day. not only mom and dad but my grandmothers too.
i swear every day i listen to this words “lose some weight”. last year i struggled with eating and lost a lot of weight but when i started to feel better i gained it again but started to workout, i finally accepted myself the way i am BUT they just broke my confidence that i built FOR A YEAR into million pieces.
i cant be in my phone cuz mom asks who i am texting to do whenever i am near them i dont text just watch some videos or smth else.
because of them i didn’t really had friends i dont know whats normal teenager does.
they are talking about something i try to suggest my opinion they tell me i don’t understand and i am too naive. and when i dont tell anything they will be like “ you are a useless always on your phone not even creative.”
mom can literally yell at me for no reason then blame me for smth i didnt do.
i ask her something but she is too busy on her phone.
i cant express myself with my clothes a lot
cant wear crop tops
because of that insecurities i literally stopped buying jeans
they literally yell at me cuz 90% of mt clothes are black
and have a hope like once i turn 18 (17now) it will change but no it wont i am sure.
i tell them marriage isnt my priority they refuse to listen
i already chose what i want to be i started to working on that i dont have time for anything else and there we go “ you dont do anything helpful “
with this all i am an artist imagine how hard it is for me
i am not diagnosed but i think i might have depression or long lasting sadness idk
i lost every interest years ago . i found one and they killed that.
i cant tell them why i am sad cuz i tried and they didn’t understand
grandma told them i might have problems with mental but she made it too extra
and they were the opposite didnt care at all