Hello my name is Jim, I am a 23 year old man and I was sexually harassed (u can say ) by my mother when I was around 10-12 years old.So when I was that age my mother suddenly one day out of the blue when we were together in the bathroom (I don’t remember why we were there ,she was doing laundry ) decided to show me her cunt.And it was incredibly disgusting ( that image haunted me for ages) and then for some time (couple months maybe ) decided to randomly flash her tips and her ass at random times to me and my younger sister.And it was always disguised as playful and meant to be fun.But it was at super random times she would just skip her pants down so we can see her ass.She did this some times and then never did it again.After that point though I never saw my mother the same again. I would feel disgusted by her I would feel disgusted if she touched me hugged me or kissed me where we before we were super close. Also from the point on I always saw her as always trying to sexually get involved with me which might not 100% true because I saw her through that image. Though the are a lot of things that I remember which cant be just harmless playful stuff.she once got her butt on top of me at my crotch and wiggled it around pretending that it was all fun and I couldnt get away because she was a lot heavier than me then and I didn’t have the strength to lift her and get away .And she would always find an opportunity if there was music playing from the tv to get between me and the the tv as to be exactly where my eyesite is have her butt faced directly at me and dance in a way to shake it .Always in the disguise of fun .That’s how I saw it atleast but I always felt so disgusted .And from one point on I would usually call her perverted when she did this kind of things as to make her stop. One extra thing is she is a highschool teacher and when I was growing up she was teaching in my school . (Even before high school we were on the same building since highschool and the school before that was on the same building )and we interacted at school too so I often felt that she was flurting with my friends and that was so fucking bad . There was a time when “I fuck your mum jokes” were super usual (u know that stupid phase boys get through ) and she once came and did a flurty playful thing to all my friends and then that became a point of mockery for years. In addition to this she would terrorize me for years about school and grades ,she pressured me to have unattainable grades when I was doing really good at school (I would get yelled at and have to be afraid for the concenquences for grades that other kids where proud of ) and once I gave up studying (at some point ) she would terrorize me .There is no other word to describe it . I would be home in my room and she would wake up from her midday sleep and open her door and I would feel so much anxiety .Will she open my door this time of not ? And a lot of times she didn’t and at some times she did . And she come and scream and hit me (until an age where u could defend myself ) and threaten me of cutting that thing from me or that thing until one day which I yelled at her at my top of my lungs if her goal is to try to make me commit suicide and then that died down a lot.What I wanted to talk about though is the sexual stuff that I havent confessed to anyone .My main problem is that all my friends know my mother and had her as a teacher and have a specific image of her which is completely different from what she was ,at messy at home.And in fact at school she was super respected as one of the better teachers and characters there . So I can’t even image talking to any of my friends about this because that would hurt their image of her and by extend the image they have of me .That’s my fear .I don’t know how to have a honest relationship with someone where I am truthful about my problems and feelings and that’s where I am going with this let’s atleast first admit this to a stranger if I can’t to someone I know