In school I was bullied by 2 to three students and TEACHERS(educated teachers haha) and it wasn't bad but it hurted me, and when I told my mom about it, she just laughed and did not care. So I never told her again..I never had any close friend in school, my parents would always tell me not to talk to this one and that one..As I was growing my mother told me that I would always be alone and that I would never have any friend in my life. Because of this I never left my toxic ex since I would not have anyone to talk to..When I was 14 years old I had a boyfriend, he emotionally abused me- he spoke very rudely to me and it would happen on a daily basis and I did not let go of him when I should have. He made me cry everyday for 3 years. I was finally able to let go of him after I learnt to be strong the hard way. I regret entertaining him in my life. I never had mental peace because of him. I had panic attacks every months when I was dating him. .I get dreams of those bullies bullying me and those dreams wake me up in the middle of the night sometimes..I wish my parents were there for me. I wish they taught me to be strong-both emotionally and physically. I hope I don't repeat their mistakes. I hope I don't treat my children that way in future..I want to move on from all the hurt. How do I do it?