I want to die.
It seems like i wasted so much of my life, i failed and destroys it so much i dont know how to fix it. Friends, family, lovers, careers. None of it was right.
I know that the problem is me. Im the one who can fix it. But i still cant. I keep procastinate and couldnt focus. Why am i like this?
And at the end of the day when i think about killing my self, i also couldnt do it.
I know what i should do, and suicide is not the answer. I know I should keep on struggling, but its also hard. Everything is so damn difficult.
I dont know what to do, i am stuck in the same circle: wanting to die, trying to fix things, unable to do it, wanting to die, continues.
Im super tired.