I really need someone to vent to. I don’t wwant to ask anyone to listen because I know they won’t care. i’m currently crying because of the overwhelming amount of school work I have to do. Especially math, I hate math the most. Mostly because i’m not good at it and will never be good at it. Numbers are just a bunch of weird scribbles to me and I can’t figure out any of it. But what i’m crying about right now is not math...it’s my mom. I love my mom with all my heart but I don’t think she feels the same way. She’s always been hard on me forcing me to do my best and never to get any days to rest (even on the weekends) from all this work you would assume i’m good at school work but I’m really not. I just wished my mom loved me, I understand parents have to be tough to get their children to behave but my mom takes it to another level. Sometimes I feel like I should just run away. I’m having thoughts about committing suicide but i’m to scared so i’m not going to. Just today my mom told me to shut up and leave her alone when I was asking for a calculator. She smacks me and shames me for not being active. How can I be active when I have to stay at home and work on homework all the time. On top of that i’m exhausted because I have to wake up at 5 am Monday through sunday. I just cant take it anymore. I just broke up with my boyfriend at the time because We both felt we shouldn’t be together, in doing that I lost 2 of my very dear friends who made me laugh. I also moved schools because my mom wants me to have the best education. I am very shy and when I mean shy I mean REALLY SHY I only have 3 friends from other schools because I’m to shy and antisocial to talk to anyone, At my new school i’m the new girl who no one wants to be friends with and I’m to shy to do anything about it. School is like torture for me, being stuck in a building for 14 hours and 30 minutes is not my ideal situation. I really try and start conversations but I just cant. I’m starving myself too, It’s not that I want to it’s just because I don’t feel like eating and gaining the extra pounds. I like to draw but my mom doesn’t appreciate my art and says I should persure something, anything other then an artist. I’m sorry for anyone who’s read this far and I hope I didn’t waste your time and thank you for listening