My life right now is a mess. Don’t get me wrong, I have a good home life, I’m doing good in school, but my mental health has gone to hell. I think that the driving factor behind this is that I have nobody to talk too. My family wouldn’t truly understand and they would try to fix everything, and my friends have their own problems in life, and I don’t want to bother them. I just feel that I have nobody that would just sit and listen to my problems. That’s why I came on here. So I guess I should get started. I’m lonely as hell. Everywhere I turn, I am reminded that I am not in a relationship, and haven’t been in a long time. My last SO disappeared from my life with no explanation, and that has left me with wondering if I’m good enough for anyone. I don’t want a girlfriend for the reason of just saying I have one. I truly want one so that I can have someone that understands me, and everywhere I look, there is something that causes it not to work. But there is this person that I really like, the only thing is, she is in a relationship already. I’m just tired of being home every Friday night scrolling through TikTok with nothing to do. And people at school are hanging out with each other. I don’t have a large friend group to be able to do that with, and I’m just lost right now in my life. I have tried just doing nothing and hoping everything falls into place, and that works for a while, until it doesn’t. Every time I think that life is finally giving me a break, it goes harder.