I try really hard to give others what I never had in life. I want people to feel safe, secure, and loved when I'm involved. Only problem with that is I never feel the same returned. I always feel like people don't care due to my past traumas and I find it hard to believe anyone does if they tell me. I desperately want to be cared for, but I don't know how to get there or how to accept it. I know I've helped others, but I feel like in the process I've just drowned myself.