I started getting closer with one of my friends and actually felt like for the first time I was someones favorite like I was her best friend, better than the others. We would talk everyday just me and her, I would invite her over just me and her none of our other friends would know but I realized today that she still likes her ex girlfriend better than me. She likes her boyfriend better than me. I also realized that no one cares about me. I can't talk about this to anyone because no one gives a shit, and my other friends, I'm none of their favorites either. They will either pick the other friend or one of my friends they don't even know for some reason. Even to the boy I was talking to he didn't like me. He liked both of my friends better than me. I'm never good enough for anyone. I just want to be enough one day, to have someone care about me as much as I care for them. I'm so tired of this treatment. Tired of everything. I miss that boy so much, he forgot about me so easily and I thought I showed him that I cared because I really did. I loved and cared for him, I would do anything for him and he just hates me.