sometimes...okay a lotta the time is wish I could just go back 4 years and make sure what I did never happened. I mean overall for me it was probably good but...it only really led to a domino effect where I probably hurt people without meaning too and honestly I don’t know if any positive effects on me can really out way that. Even with forgiveness the guilts still there not to mention there are people in unfortunately unable to apologize to. I’m trying my best to learn from all this and move on but idk...it’s hard. Sometimes I kinda just wanna disappear and ask everyone forgets I existed but I also understand how that’ll probably just hurt people in the long run...idk I know you can’t change the past and what’s done is forever set in stone but...maybe just once? So I could save at least one person some stress.