My far far away happy hormone i miss you every day..
Why u jst gone away ...
Uk what is the best natural way to boost a happy hormone..
Just spend sometime in sunshine..
Sunshine can be a person..his presence
In my case his "attitude" also..
I pushed u away due to thinga i was going through..
I didn't want u to see as someone who's weak and worthless..i knw i should have come to you earlier and explained about wht my problem is..
But this anxiety made me believe that it was best to just push you away so that o wouldn't have to deal with losing a "gem" like you..
There have been so many nights i wanted to call you because i was suffering from panic attacks.. having bad nights continue..
You never judged me for who i am
I am too tired but if I'm distant or rude i am sorry.. it's so not me uk that right?
You was nothing to me 6 months ago..
But love happen unexpectedly sometimes u fell in love with your confident that was you..at that time...
I am gamophobic i accept that..when u approaced for a relationship foe something serious i just ran away..from you..
Because i don't wanna hurt you ever..
My mind is a. Mess and i feel so misunderstood and frustrated i cry alit and breakdown quite often..i can't control it even when i try..
I wasn't there for hurting you
Everyone thinks that i am good at casual dating..but i am much more thn a party girl..i am much more than a blunt bubbky girl..i also have emotions..
When it comes to you..i just scrwed everything..
I never let anyone knws who i really am..
I miss you..
I miss your smile..your laugh..your "eggjactly"
I haven't meet u yet..nd from now I think you never gonna see me.. because u think i was the one..who ruined love for you..
By saying the harsh reality that i can't hurt you by being in a relationship with you i became the unwanted villain of your movie
You came to my life as an unwelcome face
Not every knwing your presence i would one day embrace
I love the special bond we beautifully shared in those 2months..
From a complete stranger to an important part of me..❣️