I think about dying. Its not that i hate my life, Im not depressed either. I am not suicidal but i want to die. I dont care about my life. It was given to me, but i never asked for it. Im not bored i think life itself is pretty fun. I just dont want to live. Im what youd call an odd person. I dont thrive for money or love. I exist. Thats all i do. Iam young and people my age dont think about stuff like this. So i have noone to talk to about my wish. Why didnt i kill myself if i so want to die? you may ask. Because Im not selfish. So i live and live and live. I dont hate life but i came to conclusion that i love death. I am scared of dying but im not scared of death itself. I want to die. It never leaves my mind. I dont feel lonely because i know i have people around, but what are those people? they just exist, like me. They dont realise that there is nothing in life. Than there is you. Reading this and thinking that i need help. I dont. I dont want help. Im not trying to reach out. I want to die. Why am i writing this? Who knows.. I guess i just felt like it.