I can't help the fact that I am jealous of her, yes I have his heart but she has the house the kid and the bed he sleeps in. I know that how I feel is real and deeper than anything I've ever felt for anyone. I had this plan to move away and he was supportive I was bummed because I hoped that he would ask me to stay. Of course I would love to move but I love him too much to go, I know my family opinion of my feelings because it's not old-fashioned but I still love him anyway. Because I don't want his money or the material things like the women in my family do I love him the way that he is not for what he has. I want what I want and that's him.