I love my boyfriend, but I feel like he's getting tired of me. I have really bad anxiety and depression and I feel like he's starting to get fed up with having to deal with the baggage that comes with it all the time. We've had some major blow out fights about toxic behaviors I do and I understand that they are toxic and how they negatively affect my relationship, but since I don't really have any coping skills I just continue to repeat them. I see a therapist, but only so often because her schedule is so packed. I'm just so tired of feeling like such a shitty person all the time and I wanna do better, but I feel like I'm stuck being miserable all the time.
Also keep in mind, my boyfriend is not a bad person. He is a very sweet and caring guy and he has done a lot of stuff for me and to help me. I'm not saying he's perfect and that there isn't more he could do to be understanding, but I just didn't want to make it out to seem like he was the bad guy in this situation. Most of the problems in our relationship stem from me, my immaturity, and my depression.