fuck, i miss you. 8 july 2019. i'll never forget it. you promised mere weeks before that you'd never leave. you promise you wouldn't be like all my old friends and abandon me and yet.. you did. changing your name and face and going into a different relationship the MOMENT you leave mine. i'm still upset. i'm not angry, i'm just.. upset. scared. i did everything to get you back. fuck i even tried summoning a demon and wishing upon every star in the sky but you just wouldn't come back. i can't say i've forgiven you. i had to flee every social media because of you and be nothing but a ghost of who i once was. i lost everything, everyone, and i haven't been able to build back up. i was at my worst when you left me. i had nobody else. i'm sorry i stressed you out for depending on you so much, but i had nobody else and i lost so much. you said you understood, you said you didn't mind, so why did you? why did you leave me at my weakest? why did you leave me after promising? why did you leave me, and blamed me, even though you knew i couldn't help it? you even said that yourself, and yet.. why did you?i miss you. i really do. i don't want you back as whoever you are now. i wish i could get you back as who you were and we could reset it all like none of this happened.i miss you, lovewolf.