Okay...This will sound stupid.
I need advice because I hate hearing advices. Most especially when the advices I'm receiving are contradicting to the things I want to do, believe and used to be. It's making me feel anxious and nervous for whatever reason. There's this one time when I asked my friend for one, and I just end up getting annoyed with her and her guts.There's also this one time when I posted something here and when I've read the advice that I received, it made my feeling more worse than made me feel better. Same goes into my final defense in research, I know that they are just giving me advices, but then I end up crying in the bathroom cause I hated it. I'm starting to get annoyed with myself, this is bad.