Every friendship I ever have breaks. Every relationship I have breaks. Every time, I ruin it. People loose trust in me, and I am left all alone. Recently my 3 best friend all left me in one night. I ruined my relationships and I can’t take it back. They don’t care if I didn’t mean it, I said terrible things to them that they will never forgive. It’s not like I can just get new friends, they were the only ones that I had. I don't want to kill myself, but if if did now would be a damn good time. Help! What should I do?