it's his birthday (the 20th) and I'm trying to find a song to put on a playlist. I'm 19 and he's turning 41 today. he's a single parent, my mom's out of the picture and spent the last 12 years raising me on his own. we've had a lot of problems and it doesn't help that we're both very stubborn. at times I've felt like I hated him and I think I told him once. I want him to know that I love him even though we had a rough time getting along while I was growing up. we're not the kind of people to really say what we're feeling so it doesn't need to be super obvious and feely. no "daddy" bullshit either- I used to call him papa when I was super little but now it's just dad, calling him anything else would just feel weird and uncomfortable.