I recently got in a habit of talking to people online online friends is nice but they sort of... they get attached way too quickly it's like I made them fall in love with me and then I break them, I do t do it on spite I just think of them as a friend and then they confess and I say no, i say no or.... i say yes i always say yes cause i dont want to let them down I've gotten into about 4 one sided relationships since quarantine started and all ended except one one which I am in right now(We are both girls btw) she was nice when it started off but now we're just there we got in a huge fight and that night I wanted to end it all but shes mentally unstable and wouldve most likely killed herself I dont want to be the cause of someone's death, but even tho she is weak mentally at times she's fuxking manipulative too she used the fact the she self harms to make me worry but I... I said go ahead and I felt like a bad person but I knew what she was doing we've been on and off for a while now she's losing interest in me which is good actually but like in a bad way she's not being honest about it and I can feel itWhich is putting me off I see the differnece in her messages her enthusiasm how often she's texting it's all annoying cause at first she was almost this naive and dumb and obsessed wait she is actually I don't think it's normal for people to record everything about you she has my birth date my favourite things colours animals everything I say about myself she records it whatever that's not really a problem to me she cant do me any harm as long as we arent close together anyways I just don't know what to do or how to end things easily and she won't take it easily either cause I've said some irresponsible things in the last and she got hung up on them the whole day and even ended up self harming (I had a period of self harm aswell it stopped around the time I met her and that's why I reached out to her and tried to help but it's only gotten worse she even attempted)