As I get older I realize its important to have people in your life. For starters, most people suck. They are the origin of the majority of my problems. I remember what its like to have somebody. He ventured through a snow storm and picked me up from the metro station when I texted him. This doesn't seem like a big deal but for me it was the first time somebody outside of my family was dependable so I was like...okay I can see being in a relationship with this dude. That was my first gay relationship but it ended less than a month later. He dumped me for some stupid reason and then when he tried to get back with me months later I said no, I'm not playing games like that. Later I found out he was doing drag, and that was a big turn off for me. So I've only had one night stands ever since. Its lonely. The guys I like only want what they see in the mirror. Of course Ive dated other guys but I always felt like I was off my game and cringey with no money. Meanwhile they work high pay jobs and drive giant cars around. I just couldnt keep up.