It's been almost a whole year since one of my best mates took their life. It's still really difficult to cope with most days and I keep thinking about all the times I was worried about them and didn't say anything. They would constantly talk about ending it and even though I tried to talk them out of it I'm just not very good at dealing with emotions and situations like that. I remember telling my friends that I was scared they'd might do something but I also didn't want to make a huge fuss over nothing if it was just nothing. I really hate myself and that I didn't do something to save them. I feel like I really let them down and I regret it everyday. I really don't know what to do because it's really just too late to change it all now.