i loved you for a while, i think you knew. but i knew i could never have you, so i introduced you to her and you caught feelings. she has your attention now, and i'm okay with it. i miss our talks from sunrise to sunset, our questionable inside jokes, our little secret. i hope you can have all those things with her. what can i say? i've been bitten with the jealousy bug, and i hate it. i meant everything i said in that other message, and more. but i can't even tell you anymore because she has your heart. everything's fallen to shit, even with him. i care about you more than i care about him, but i still can't help but cry over you both. every single conversation we've had is permanently saved in my memories, like the compliments she gives you. i wish mine had the same impact, but i'm just not her. i've tried so long to make sure you're happy, that i've forgotten about myself. i wake up everyday, thinking about how i can't have you. and i just want to fall apart. i love you.