I can't talk to my family about shit. Everytime I try to they said "we've done the same things," "I've went through worse." I understand it but were completley different people we don't live the same emotions nor life. But when I talk about me wanting to commit its because of 'TikTok'? I've had the thought of literally gabbing a knife to end it but they don't care till your gone right? The failed drowning attempts, cutting, and faking a smile I just can't anymore. When I say I don't think I'm living past 18 thats why. If my parents do see this, you're pushing me away, but getting me closer to death.