TRIGGER WARNING SUICIDE I feel so paranoid all the time. I never feel alone, but this time it's a bad thing. The feeling of eyes being on me is not leaving, not even in my mind. I can't even chill in my mind anymore, I'm scared someone might hear my terrible thoughts. Yet I feel so alone. I want to kill myself. I just always feel like a burden, and Christmas only made it worse. Selfish is my trigger word, and having people waste so much money on me after I repeatedly told them I don't want anything is just making me feel selfish, so much. I feel worthless. I don't deserve any of this. If I kill myself I will just make it better for everyone. I have no reason to be sad.