I feel so terrible, so full of hatred. Why do I have to be me? Why can't I run away......I'm pathetic. I'm ugly, I'm undesirable. I can't do shit properly. I'm just a burden on my poor parents, they think I'm going to make it so big one day and make them so proud. I'm not even capable of it, all I do is lay on my bed all day. My friends think I'm nice, if only they could look inside my mind. Why is it only me?Why can't I be normal?Even cutting doesn't feel good anymore. I just want someone to hug me till I forget myself. I'm tired. I'm so tired. I don't want to be a failure.