when i was seven or eight i went onto youtube to see a makeup video by this girl named kittie mamas and since i saw that she was doing a video where she put makeup all over her face, i thought it was okay. so i did it and i basically did black face as a little kid. and recently (i’m fourteen.) i’ve had instances where i will lyp sinc songs and then it will say the n word and i didn’t know and it’ll end up looking like i said the n word. am i a bad person?