Every night for the past week, I have felt like I was going to die.
The idea that I could just have a random health complication and just die right her and right now just overcomes me. I don't know why. I'm not the healthiest person but by no means am I overweight or anything like that, but my body just randomly hurts in different places and it always aligns with some horrible life threatening thing when I look it up which honestly probably doesn't help me here.
But the other night something happened that I can't explain, my entire body just started to ache and when I tried to lay down and ignore it I felt like I was being ripped out of my own body.It sounds insane and I probably AM going insane I felt like my fingers didn't properly fit in a glove and the glove was my own hand, and my legs went numb and my head spun. I snapped out of it and just was terrified. Something is wrong with me and I don't know what it is.
The other day I was on the couch and suddenly I just felt everything. I got so overwhelmed with some vague emotion and just started crying. I tried calming myself down and I went into the bathroom to wash my face but as soon as I saw my reflection I was just filled with dread. I don't know why.
Tonight is the same as the past few nights, it's 10:50 and I feel like I'm going to die. Different parts of my body are starting to hurt and I'm feeling those vague horrible emotions again. I don't know what's wrong with me, I feel like I'm going insane. Time is moving faster, I'm really anxious like... all the time.
I don't know what's wrong with me.