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I thought there is a thing called reciprocity

I hate having to always be the first person to initiate a conversation and keep the conversation going. Everyone fucking ignores me and I’m so fucking sick of it. Am I such a boring person that no one wants to talk to unless it’s out of necessity?! I do my best to cater to their every need and try to entertain them and keep them interested in conversations, and they either completely ignore me or answer with one word yes no responses. Correct me if I’m wrong, but most people would prefer something a little more sincere than just an “ok” after someone just poured their heart out. I hate them, I hate them all. What have I done to them to be treated this way? I put them on a pedestal just to be cast aside by them like a pile of shit. Now I just want to tell them: fuck you. I am not your bitch and I will not tolerate your abuse any longer. After so many years, I’ve finally learned my lesson. As Sansa Stark said, “I’m a slow learner, it’s true. But I learn.” I refuse to stay in these toxic relationships. I am leaving for real this time. I hope that you’ll miss me when I’m gone, because then you’ll only have yourselves to blame. But unfortunately, that’ll only happen in my imagination, because you don’t care about me, you never did, and you never will.