He don't love me anymore. I made mistakes in my life a lot of them but I only loved a single man the whole life and it's only him. I was working in Delhi (work from home) living with one of my colleague and friend at another colleague's Grandma's place on rent. We three is us used to work together as it helps us resolve each other with the queries. My friend and the boy in whose house we were living they fell in love and she started to live with him at his room all the time and I was alone in my room. I only used to go down to work during my shift or cook food (food was prepared at this room, because they were in love and said it's easy for all) and then after shift ends I used to go back to my room to sleep. His bf has a brother living with him, he was angry with his brother because he was busy with her so called new gf and wasn't giving time to him. And so as was the case with me my friend was also ignoring me for all this long. So, he and I used to talk about things like these that they have changed just because they are in a relationship now it doesn't mean you would stop talking to your friends or brother. I was just sharing thought and listening to him and nothing else. One day he came by my room in the morning I don't remember the exact time stating that he wants me to shoot a tiktok video for him and I did because I have a good camera phone it seems. While I showed him the video and he was editing it, he came close to me and kissed me he tried to touch me. I stopped him and asked him to leave because I have a bf whom a love the most and never want to cheat on him. I didn't talk to him for days and was very stressed about this that whom should I tell this as it was killing me. I was not talking to my bf much ignoring him and don't know why. He was stressed too. One day that guy came and said sorry to me about the day and I said never do this again and leave please. One day all three used to fight with me make me feel like an outsider in the house. I used to miss my family and my bf so so much. I used to cry on phone while talking to Papa and Mamma that please take me home I don't want to live here. And my parents used to say how would we come here beta during lockdown if ever you come somehow they won't let you come in Army cantt. My Papa said everything will be fine please be calm beta. On that day I left work logged out and didn't go for like 3-4 hours because I was crying I called my bf as well and he said baba everything will be ok just relax I told you never shift with her, she is not right I never listened to him because I said she is not like that but I was wrong and she was worse than anything. My biggest mistake I shifted with her. On the same day that guy came by to take the keys of terrace and by the I could get the keys he went as the door of terrace was open, I locked my room door again. After an half an hour or so I went upstairs for a walk as my bf said so.. and that guy was there too so I came back to my room and he followed me and by the time I could lock my door he asked me what happened to you why are you not working did they say anything to you. I never wanted to talk to him after that day but he came and hugged me and kissed on my head and said are you missing your family don't worry as soon as locked opens I suggest you go from here. While talking the hug and kiss happened which was so quick that I didn't realise that he is the same person who tried to touch me earlier and said noo and please go from here. I stopped talking for a long time then and a day came that his brother and his gf left from work early and slept in my room and locked door from the inside. When I logged out I knocked on the door a number of times called them to open the door as never wanted to sleep down there in his room. I was there on the door for more than half an hour. They didn't open and I was left with no choise to go down and I was feeling do sleepy and tired. I went down in his room and slept on to one corner of the bed by covering my self with a bedsheet and pillow in the middle of both of us so that he don't come close to me. In the kids of the night he tried to kiss me while k was sleeping and he got over me and try to touch me again I was in deep sleep and was unconscious too and I didn't realise if I'm sleeping on his bed or mine and all of a sudden when he got hard on me I woke up and pushed him away. I told him I slept here because they didn't open the door and wasn't trying to give you any sign for anything why the hell you are doing this I'm not interested and cried and opened the door and left to my room it was morning around 5 or 6. I knocked on the door and his bf came and opened the door and told him to leave my room. I went in my room she was sleeping in hall on a matress on the floor and I went in my room and cried a lot and slept. This is all happened and my bf spied on me before I wasn't talking to him much ignoring him and he thought I have been cheating on him with someone but I wasn't. I know I made mistakes in my past life because of which he don't trust me much but I had no feelings nothing with that guy nothing at all but he don't listen to me or trust me now. Our families were talking to eachother as we were about to marry but now he don't trust or talk to me, he has become abusive. I know I have been mad on him, I didn't talk nicely with him ignored him but that does mean I was cheating him, I didn't but he don't believe me anymore. He treats me like I am no one to him now. He says tell me the whole truth and I'll never leave you but I don't have anything else to tell him about all that happened WHAT SHOULD I DO??? I have been trying hard to get him from last 3 months now and I know it's been hard on him too to believe me after what I did in the past but I didn't cheat on him this time. He is ignoring me now all the time, just like I did. He is busy on calls with someone else for more than hours and I keep calling he don't answer and after the call ends he shouts on me saying can't you wait why calling me again and again when you know I'm on call, it's because I'm scared to loose him, what should I do to beleive him he don't trust me talk to me. I have been talking to his sister asking her to please tell your brother to talk to me pls I can't live without him. But he listens to no one. I called his father he didn't pick up so I texted that Papa I want to talk to you. His father said "Is there any problem?" I replied "No PapaI just wanted to say that I love him so much and I can't loose him. He is not talking to me much these days, not giving me time. Please Papa talk to him and tell him to give me time and talk to me". Papa said "he is workable hard from home and really busy Nothing like that, never doubt on him, I know him'. I said I would never doubt on him Papa but he is barely talking to me. What should I do, I can't live without him I swear I didn't cheat on him. I just want him back. I need help please I have been crying fr last 3 months like this and I I'm going in depression. Please somebody help me with this. I can't loose him I can't. I love him so much how do I prove this to him. I'm ready to listen to his taunts all my life but I want him back at any cost, I can't imagine my life without him please. I love himI love you baba so much pls come back.