Fuck I hate my life so bad, the only thing stopping me from killing myself is my mom, she would be so traumatized if I died. I have a step father who touched me when I was 6, I thought nothing of it. He tried again just this year, I am 13. I started hating him, why woild he cheat on his own wife with his fucking daughter. This made me feel so bad for my mother, who is mentally ill, lost her fortune, and got raped and had me. I thought about suicide when he tried to touch me. Just today, he fought with his mother (in filipino) do I didn't understand anything. He threatened me and my mom to kill himself, which would ruin both our lives. I would get adopted, my mom would become homeless. Just recently I was ghosted by my best friend and I felt like they didn't give a shit when I vented to them.Please help me and thank you for reading this.