I want to put an end to one of life’s missteps which is me. Life is so beautiful and truly a privilege that is taken unwillingly from so many people. This is one of the many things that make me feel guilt. I often feel guilt of my very existence. Why is someone as untalented and honestly dim-witted as me given the chance to live? Not everyone can be smart, or beautiful, or talented, or competent or even functional, I know im none of the above, but paired with this crippling self loathing I seem to never be able to do anything about it, no matter how hard I try. All my achievements feel fraudulent and all the opportunities I’ve had, I have proven to be completely incompetent. Why is life so unfair? Why not give life to someone who isn’t a waste of space or resources? Someone who is capable to withstand hardships, who doesn’t crack under pressure, who has any talent whatsoever, who isn’t a hinderance to anybody, who can live a healthy and happy life.Im tired of messing up. I want to hurt myself because it’s what I deserve. At this point I don’t deserve anything. I keep making the same mistakes and im honestly not cut out for anything. So many people go through worse things, so many people full of potential have died or live in conditions that they cannot escape. Yet here I am, with all the resources and opportunities in the world wanting to die because I can’t handle anything. I hate myself.