I never talked about this to anyone but I want to be considered nice to everybody and not giving weird, awkward vibes when I'm around. I hate being judged over mistakes I've made. Everyone seems to leave me alone, seeing the worst of me and not letting go of my horrible past self. I want to change but because of fear of being judged, I can't do it myself. I really appreciated all of the small supports from my friends but, thinking about it everyday giving me insomnia. I wished to change the past because I love my friends in that school, and I don't want to lose them. I believe I can be better but I always be down graded by most of the people. I'm scared. I want to change.