I’ve been feeling sad often. I really just wanted to end things with my friends and have time to collect my thoughts and feelings. Today I just told one of my closest friend that I wanted to end our friendship because of my family problems and because we never contacted each other much. They replied telling me that they understood how I felt and that they knew that at some point the friendship we had would end. They even told me that they loved me as a friend none of my friends ever told me that they loved me. I regret it now. I feel like I should’ve opened up to them a while ago and now i feel like crap. I felt like no one cared for me, but I was super secretive and never told them my problems. Now I have to let them go since things ended now. I feel like this will affect my life a lot. I noticed that it’s harder to forget someone that was important to you. What’s worse is that they were the only friend I had. I feel like I shouldn’t be talking about this kind of stuff at such a young age. I wish I could just start over. I want to tell them about the problems I had. I want to tell them everything now that things have ended. I REGRET EVERYTHING I still want to be friends with them, but it’s to late. I just want someone to talk to, about what’s going on in my life. I wish I could just start that friendship over. Now I’m alone. I hope in the future I’ll meet someone that would open up to me or someone to open up to. I just wish I had a restart button. I guess life really is unfair.