Just another niave gullible easy mark. I souposed all the booze just made it easier. No. What made it easy was me and my want for it to be true. My lack of ability in standing up for myself and lack in setting boundaries and sticking tio them doesn't help.I am grateful that he never tried to lead me on. I appreciate that.Although that would have been easy enough for him to do had he wanted to. I'm stupid that way.Fuck, I still want to believe in fucking fairy tales and happily ever afters. In the death do us part and honey I'm home shit. Fairy tails. I know. Sure would be nice if that's how the world worked. But it don't.The world now has baby daddies and side hoes... Std`s and single parents. Divorce rates are so high that marrying your high school sweetheart and celebrating a 50th anniversary together can make you a legend. Like wtf? Everyone thinks about the hear and now. Gotta get laid. Tally marks on a bed post. Who the fuck thinks about being by yourself in a home where strangers wipe the warm drool off your cold face? Cuz eventually age catches up. The hoes get older. Your dick stops working. Soon Your to afraid of breaking a hip to think of a peice. And you can only sit and dream of the what ifs. Alone. With Your cat or your in home nurse. Because life was so short you had to get that dick now. Instead of waiting and learning to respect each other first.I guess some issues is cuz some are inherently broken. I for one am either gonna sleep with ya right away or friend zone you. Once Your friend zoned you have lost all sexual appeal. I won't sleep with you again. I can't. Backwards from how it's souposed to be. I know. That's just what is.