There's something deeply wrong with me which I never really understood until now. I've realised that for all my life I've wanted to be a woman, even though I was born and raised as a boy. I don't understand why this is such a big deal to me or why I keep coming back to this month after month year after year. I feel so ashamed and wrong inside. I've secretly worn women's clothing in the hopes of satiating this feeling but it hasn't gone away. I can't ever be a transgender so I've tried everything to make it go away but it keeps coming back. Why can't I just accept and be happy with being a man?