I am in constant physical pain from head to toe. I barely sleep. I lay down with the knowledge that I’ll be awake again in two or three hours, that’s if I actually fall asleep. The majority of the time I’m tortured by the feeling of something crawling on me, but I look and there’s nothing there. I’ve ended up tossing, turning, and scratching myself raw most nights. I want to be done with all of it. I often think of hanging myself in the hall closet.